They say that there are 4 major life changes that cause unprecedented stress.
1. Death of a child/spouse/close loved one
2. Moving
3. Divorce
4. Loss of Job
I've been dealing with 3 out of 4 since September 19th.
I've often written on this blog about "restarting". It's the whole "I'll-be-more-consistent-from-now-on" promise and I always mean it. It rarely happens though. Old habits dying hard and all (complete with German baddie being pushed off the top of a skyscraper in LA).
Well, life or the universe or whatever has just given me one Hell of a restart and by God I am taking it. I am determined to use the freedom caused by great loss to propel me into a new path - the path I've always talked about wanting to follow. The path that's always been available, but too scary. Ain't nuthin' scary now.
In fact, I've been calm and philosophical about it all. It's not that I'm not upset (I have my moments...in private), but that there's so little I can do about any of it. There's really no point in getting distraught to the point of inaction over something I didn't cause and can't stop. Best to pull on a pair of hip waders and slog through it. So, I'm slogging.
And when I come out on the other side of the muck there are going to be some changes around here.
First, I will hold myself responsible for pictures and content on this blog. Time to make good on all those promises. Plus, I'll be doing a lot of thrifting looking to fill out those new diggs I'm having to rent, so there'll be metric boat loads of content. There'll be outfit pictures, furniture pictures, arts& crafts pictures, and even food pictures. Content Galore, kids! Keep your eyes peeled for 11/1.
Pre-first, I need to get that pesky move out of the way then I need to buy my own computer so I can upload all this goodness. Then first will happen.
I'll be honest, once the sheer terror of a restart on this scale simmered down it's been nothing but exciting. I am looking forward to the rest of my life because I haven't imagined it - it's all new. This is not a path I would have thought would Be available to me so I never put my mind to it. Now that I have to, the freedom of no preconceived notions is amazing. I can do anything. I always could, but now I see it's true.
1. Death of a child/spouse/close loved one
2. Moving
3. Divorce
4. Loss of Job
I've been dealing with 3 out of 4 since September 19th.
I've often written on this blog about "restarting". It's the whole "I'll-be-more-consistent-from-now-on" promise and I always mean it. It rarely happens though. Old habits dying hard and all (complete with German baddie being pushed off the top of a skyscraper in LA).
Well, life or the universe or whatever has just given me one Hell of a restart and by God I am taking it. I am determined to use the freedom caused by great loss to propel me into a new path - the path I've always talked about wanting to follow. The path that's always been available, but too scary. Ain't nuthin' scary now.
In fact, I've been calm and philosophical about it all. It's not that I'm not upset (I have my moments...in private), but that there's so little I can do about any of it. There's really no point in getting distraught to the point of inaction over something I didn't cause and can't stop. Best to pull on a pair of hip waders and slog through it. So, I'm slogging.
And when I come out on the other side of the muck there are going to be some changes around here.
First, I will hold myself responsible for pictures and content on this blog. Time to make good on all those promises. Plus, I'll be doing a lot of thrifting looking to fill out those new diggs I'm having to rent, so there'll be metric boat loads of content. There'll be outfit pictures, furniture pictures, arts& crafts pictures, and even food pictures. Content Galore, kids! Keep your eyes peeled for 11/1.
Pre-first, I need to get that pesky move out of the way then I need to buy my own computer so I can upload all this goodness. Then first will happen.
I'll be honest, once the sheer terror of a restart on this scale simmered down it's been nothing but exciting. I am looking forward to the rest of my life because I haven't imagined it - it's all new. This is not a path I would have thought would Be available to me so I never put my mind to it. Now that I have to, the freedom of no preconceived notions is amazing. I can do anything. I always could, but now I see it's true.
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